As humans, we always feel like we need to be doing something. Myself included, I don’t like to be idle for very long, or I feel like I’m wasting my time and should be doing something productive in some way. It’s hard to appreciate being still and just “be” because we’re surrounded by people and all the things we “should” be doing.
I had the rare opportunity to just “be” for almost a week, and I will never forget it and forever appreciate the experience.
When I was 17, I went on a caribou hunt in the Northwest Territories, Canada with my mom. (Long story short, I was somehow entered in a contest to win this hunt, and my dad was contacted. He would have gone with me, but he was already planning on being on another hunt at that time, so he enlisted my mom). The next hurdle was that it was during the first week of my senior year of high school and that was a lot of school to miss. We got around all these things, and my mom and I set out.
Our first stop was Norman Wells – population less than 1000, one main road (if that), a liquor store with a specified daily limit, and one hotel that was a double-wide trailer. We finally flew to camp in a Beaver airplane with the two couples that would be hunting with the same outfit. We got to base camp and all flew our separate ways, Mom and I each in our own Super Cubs (much to her dismay). Super Cubs fit two people – the pilot and a passenger, as long as they’re fairly small in size. We landed on the snowy runway, which I was sure we weren’t going to survive, and made our way down to the one-room cabin; luxury compared to the other people in two-man tents on the ground. We met our guides, Travis and Caleb…I somehow still remember their names. I’m sure a mother-daughter hunting team was just what they wanted to do for a week.
The details in the beginning are fuzzy. We got settled in. Mom and I on bunks against one wall, Travis and Caleb on bunks against the adjacent one. There was a stove in the corner for heat, which came in handy when the blizzard came in. We waited the required 24 hours after flying (so as not to scout from the air and have an unfair advantage). The bathroom…a hole in the ground with a couple walls around it, was about 100ft from the cabin. We were advised to bring our gun when we went, in case we ran into bears or wolves. That meant I went when I needed to go, and I went when Mom needed to go because someone needed to carry the gun.
First day of our week long hunt and it was freezing cold. We had put so much focus into our clothes and sort of ignored our footwear. My hiking boots were great, but not in 6 inches of snow. We crested the first hill and saw a herd of caribou not too far away. There were a couple good bulls in the group, so we made our way down to them. I went first; down in one shot. Mom went second. Mother and daughter, two caribou laying side by side. What a day. I think somehow some higher power knew that we were not going to make it all week in the shoes we had so they put the herd right in front of us. It was snowing and I was fine except that I couldn’t feel my feet. We helped take care of the caribou and made our way back to camp. First day and we had our animals. We’d get to go home a few days early and I wouldn’t have to miss so much school. (Seems like an odd concern, but it was my senior year and making up a week of school didn’t sound like a lot of fun). No such luck – we were fogged in. In order for the pilots to bring the planes back to pick us up, they had to have a certain amount of visibility, and there was virtually none.
To the point of my story –
We were fogged in the rest of the week and only got to go home a day earlier than scheduled. There was no way to know when the fog would lift, so we woke up every morning, thinking that day would be the day. When it wasn’t, we had to fill the day with something. There wasn’t anymore hunting to do. We each had wolf tags, but you kind of have to wait for them to cross your path.
I had to learn to “just be”. Boredom was not an option.
We got up, made breakfast, checked the weather. I played a lot of solitaire and occasionally a game of rummy when I could enlist other players. Travis had brought his walkman that hooked up to two tiny speakers, so we listened to one Johnny Cash CD and one George Strait CD over and over again. But I never got sick of it, because there were no other options. We had no choice. Mom and I would take a walk up to the airstrip right before lunch time (she walked and I drug my ass behind her with the rifle over my shoulder). We’d maybe take a nap after that, then help cook dinner, which was usually steak and a randomly chosen freeze-dried side.
It almost doesn’t get more “in the middle of nowhere” than that. We were 20 miles south of the Arctic Circle. No electricity, no way to communicate with the outside world except for a two-way radio that was only useful if someone happened to be sitting by theirs on the other end. I loved it. When there’s no way to use the extra stuff we’re used to, you don’t miss it. In high school I wrote poetry, so it gave me time to contemplate my (really complicated) 17 year old life.
I’ve always remembered that week and I’m still fascinated that I don’t remember a moment of boredom. There is not a place on earth where there is much less to do. The only thing to really do is exist, and we did.
Now, when I start to fall into a feeling of boredom I remember that, and I try to just exist in the moment. I appreciate that no one is calling me, that nothing is on TV, and that I can just sit and stare out the window at whatever is going by. Try it.